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So I have been working and working,

well not really. I have been working just that I haven’t been able to get paid because my work is updating my blogs. Writing is the only thing that I love enough that can actually relax me at any time. I love to write and I realized this summer that I can use it as a a form of therapy and so I started my blogs and also my vlogs on youtube as my way out.

It gets really frustrating at times but I just keep on writing or talking. Instead of talking to myself and answering my back I simply share my thoughts with others who may find themselves in the very same situation as me. Sharing my thoughts about what’s happening in my life ease the burden of carrying it alone but also reminds me that I am not alone in my struggles as I get feed back from others.

As with most writers there will be writer’s block and frustration but as long as there’s a pen, paper, a keyboard and a camera, continue to share your story as I will continue to share mine.

Love and Blessings

LaBelleMademoiselle

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Good news…..

So I am actually recording the lesson reviews as we speak “just waiting for them to upload” and today was actually a pretty good day. I felt really, really, good after this morning’s worship and it gave me a bright outlook with which to begin the day. Of all the tasks that was on my to do list, I accomplished three but I still think that I did quite good.

The best news of all though was that I actually got a call back from one of the jobs that I had emailed and was asked to come in for an interview and training. I am sooooooooooooo happy right now. Simply getting the call back itself is awesome. God loves to do things on His own time so I am learning patience and also learning to give Him His working space.

I will update tomorrow about how everything well, so please do keep me in your prayers.

Love,

LaBelleMademoielle

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La belle mademoiselle

I think I am finally getting back on track to being normal again, well at least for now.  I was up at 5:44am “and I think that 6am will now be my worship time” and had the best worship session I have had within the pat three years. I started off by singing some wonderful French hymns from the French hymnal and jut felt blessed and inspired and ready to conquer the world, it was such a beautiful moment.  After I sang “at leas what I call singing” I said a quick word of prayer and had Bible study.

The lesson was about the book of Romans and the key text for the week is Romans 3: 28 and I will now repeat it without looking “therefore we conclude that a man is justified by faith by the deeds of the law” and I didn’t memorize it too well, it should have read “therefore we conclude that a man is justified by faith without the deeds of the law” and Thursday’s lesson spoke of “Faith and works”.  After I read the lesson and answered the questions I read Genesis Chapter one the entire chapter and for evening worship I will read chapter two it was pretty interesting to me even though I had read it so many times before.

My prayer this morning was very simple and short. I thanked God for accepting my worship, I asked for forgiveness, I laid my plans before Him and asked Him to take over my life and that was it. Amen

I enjoyed worship and even got the idea from the Holy Spirit that I should do a lesson review each week and post it up jut before sunset so that people can have discussions that they normally wouldn’t have. Depending on how everything goes I may even do an “after show” where we really dig into the lesson.

My concern now is that should I merge all of my channels together or should I keep them apart. The verdict is still out but hopefully this evening we will have gotten an answer.

Have a great day, hugs, kisses and peace

LaBelleMademoiselle

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Circumstances and attitudes.

“We can’t always choose our circumstances , but we can choose our attitudes towards them.” — Unknown

That was a tweet that I got from following Neil Gibson on twitter to tell you the truth I really needed that, it makes me realize that I am not alone.

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Don’t look ma cause I’m grumpy

So last night or this morning rather I went to bed on top of the world and now I’m feeling like a sad little puppy “insert puppy face here”. I know that lack of sleep has a lot to do with and so does stress but I’m still not liking this feeling. I’m know why I’m upset but because I can’t change the situations my mind is telling me that I also can’t change my feeling which I know is not true. Right now some of my stress include a relationship that I am not so sure about, I’m three weeks away from maybe not attending classes again, I’m broke, I need to find a new place to live, I need to have some legal stability in my life, I need to work on my relationship with my parents, I need to actually put some food in my system as my hair is starting to show it, I need a job and so on and so on. So to kinda help me get out of this funk that I’m in I decided to do four things this afternoon.

  1. Finish cleaning my room as well as the bathroom
  2. Go on a half hour jog around the field.
  3. Read a book right now I think it’s going to be Max Lucado’s “Cure for the Common Life” something about finding your sweet spot.
  4. Go to bed at 11pm whether I’m sleepy or not

Maybe I’ll do them maybe I won’t who knows, all I know is that I wanna get out of this mood. I think that I’ll go jogging right before bedtime so that I can kinda tire myself out.  I have no idea what will happen but we’ll see. Right now I’m listening to The Northern Caribbean Choir and they sound amazing. I’ll be sure to check back in an hour with an update.

LaBelleMademoiselle.

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Room make over?

Yep that’s right. I am going to actually take the time tonight to give my room the much deserved make over. Nothing extra just a little nip tuck here and there, rearranging a few things, putting some things here adding some things there and I’ll be good to go. I started to arrange my room and then found out that I will have to move before the end of the year and then decided against it but now I have decided that since I’ll be here I’ll just make it my home away from home until that time comes for me to move again.  I thought that I should have put up the before pictures here but just to add to the suspense I’ll save them until I am done and then will do an entire video. Yay me.

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I actually actually accomplished something today,

Look ma I did laundry. Today I had a long to do list and the only thing that got done was laundry.  In order to understand why this is such a big accomplishment you have to understand my state of mind right now. I have been out of classes, out of work and out of money so my life is in chaos right now. I decided that if I can’t accomplish the big things in life I might as well attempt the small things such as household chores and hobbies that I love. So I think I deserve to pat myself on the back because even if I only got one thing done on my list, it is one thing that I don’t have to worry about.

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