Archive for July, 2010
Here’s my what’s good list
- I have a small group of friends who support me through prayers, facebook, and pocket change
- I have found a friend that I could talk certain things to and he actually listens.
- I am working on a website
- I had an interview on Friday for a job.
- I live in a country where there is no law.
- I have a family
- I have hope that I can go to school in the fall.
- It may take me longer than normal to get my degree but I’m still learning.
- I have a laptop
- I am alive.
So remember folks things may seem to be all wrong however, there are lots of things that we have that we should be thankful for. God is still in charge and that’s all that matters.
Love and Happiness,
I spent the entire day today just thinking of all the bad things that has been happening in my life since last September so I figured that I might as well make a list and that I did. Today, I was sick and felt like I had no where to go and no one to turn to, no one can understand my frustration right now except for God because HE IS the one who created me, HE HAS plans for me and so I tell all my worries and troubles to Him. Now, the reason why I am sharing this with you is because I feel that there are others out there just like me, going through the same heartaches I am going through, having no one to call a friend, feeling depressed and hopeless, however, there is Hope. Below, is my list of all the bad things in my life.
- It’s taking me longer than anyone to complete a four year degree, money don’t come easy.
- I have no place to call home “see why Jesus and I get along so well”
- Right now I don’t have the relationship with my family that I once had.
- I have $17 in the bank.
- I have no idea if I’ll be able to register this fall
- I owe my school four thousand dollars, yes that’s right you read it four big ones.
- I am unemployed.
- I think I’m losing my learning ability
- I don’t find reading so enjoyable any more.
- I’m here at 12am writing this list.
Peace and health,
So I was actually able to get some sleep last night, yay me “whoot, whoot”.
I had Sabbath worship last night very informal because I was not at home so I had to do have worship in the bathroom.
Yesterday, which was Sabbath we went to camp meeting and got to see lots of old faces.
Now my site is up so I will be kept busy with that. Hopefully, I’m able to get some sleep tonight.
Last night, I spent over two hours recording four videos reviewing our sabbath school lessons. However, when all was done and finished and was ready to be uploaded on youtube surprise, surprise, there was no sound. Absolutely, no sound whatsoever, I was a little upset actually I was really upset. I had spent all the time and energy and nothing came out of it. By the time I had re-recorded three new videos it was 1am and I was simply tired. The fact that I had made this promise to God to do this I tried to keep my promise. I look forward to continuing the lesson reviews every week.
I had a job interview today and it went well, tell you the truth it went great, that is until we got to our work schedule. This is a furniture store and Saturdays are more than just busy and so all hands are required. I said to the manager interviewing me that I’m Seventh Day Adventist and his response was “what’s that” after 5 minutes of explanation he was still lost so I said to put it simple “I’m a Christian Jew” then he kinda understood. H e said that I can work either the 9-3 shift or the 3-9 shift, yeah that helped a lot. I went to explain to him that it would be impossible because I could make more commission on one Saturday than during the week. I then started to feel disappointed. Wondering in my mind why I have to be the “special case”. Why I had to be different, then I remembered John 15:19 “If ye were of the world, the world would love his own: but because ye are not of the world, but I have chosen you out of the world, therefore the world hateth you”, that scripture gave me all of the inspiration alone. I know that God has brought me this far and will continue to do that. I will not compromise my belief for a job even though I really need it, if I remain faithful to God, He will remain faithful to me.
As I go to bed tonight my head is filled with anxiety, fear, loneliness, desperation but also HOPE. Hope in knowing that I may not have money but I will be given my daily bread.
So I am actually recording the lesson reviews as we speak “just waiting for them to upload” and today was actually a pretty good day. I felt really, really, good after this morning’s worship and it gave me a bright outlook with which to begin the day. Of all the tasks that was on my to do list, I accomplished three but I still think that I did quite good.
The best news of all though was that I actually got a call back from one of the jobs that I had emailed and was asked to come in for an interview and training. I am sooooooooooooo happy right now. Simply getting the call back itself is awesome. God loves to do things on His own time so I am learning patience and also learning to give Him His working space.
I will update tomorrow about how everything well, so please do keep me in your prayers.
I think I am finally getting back on track to being normal again, well at least for now. I was up at 5:44am “and I think that 6am will now be my worship time” and had the best worship session I have had within the pat three years. I started off by singing some wonderful French hymns from the French hymnal and jut felt blessed and inspired and ready to conquer the world, it was such a beautiful moment. After I sang “at leas what I call singing” I said a quick word of prayer and had Bible study.
The lesson was about the book of Romans and the key text for the week is Romans 3: 28 and I will now repeat it without looking “therefore we conclude that a man is justified by faith by the deeds of the law” and I didn’t memorize it too well, it should have read “therefore we conclude that a man is justified by faith without the deeds of the law” and Thursday’s lesson spoke of “Faith and works”. After I read the lesson and answered the questions I read Genesis Chapter one the entire chapter and for evening worship I will read chapter two it was pretty interesting to me even though I had read it so many times before.
My prayer this morning was very simple and short. I thanked God for accepting my worship, I asked for forgiveness, I laid my plans before Him and asked Him to take over my life and that was it. Amen
I enjoyed worship and even got the idea from the Holy Spirit that I should do a lesson review each week and post it up jut before sunset so that people can have discussions that they normally wouldn’t have. Depending on how everything goes I may even do an “after show” where we really dig into the lesson.
My concern now is that should I merge all of my channels together or should I keep them apart. The verdict is still out but hopefully this evening we will have gotten an answer.
Have a great day, hugs, kisses and peace
So today started out very ordinary and of course still stressed out. I was in bed moping and not really happy when my cell phone rang. On the other end of the line was a lady wondering if she could make a delivery for me n a few minutes, I assumed that it was some hair products I had ordered. To my surprise I got a vase of flowers. Not just any flowers but they were also purple. It made my day so much brighter and changed my entire mood. The fact that someone saw me as being special enough that they took the time out to think of me made it all sweeter. There’s an old saying “give me my flower while I’m alive and today I can truly say that someone has. A special thank you to that special person.